Full of Halves

When I was growing up, 
My mother said "FULL" a lot. 
She wanted me to 
Eat my full meal. 
Drink a full glass of Milk. 
Full was important to her. 
Her chest would double in size 
When she'd see i scored full marks. 
Did you get those crazy science projects? 
I remember her eyes, 
so full of pride 
Just because i completed that assignment 
from start till finish, by myself. 
Because I am brown 
And was raised on the land of Stereotype, 
She was kinda-sorta content 
When I wore Full clothes. 
You know, like, covering my legs and stuff. 
When I had my head
Too far stuck in a problem... 
She never told me its gonna be easy, 
Instead, 
She said'd say that i shouldn't rest, 
TILL-I-HAVE-GIVEN-IT-MY-ABSOLUTE-BEST
FULL BEST. 
You know, not the kinda best you are tired 
But the kinda Full Best when you are Done. 
Full Done.
FULL!!! 
It has taught me many things. 
Mostly about happiness. 
When we had guests, 
Balancing that tray 
Carrying the full cups, 
Seemed like quite an achievement. 
A birthday, 
That's full of people. 
On a dark night, 
my heart feels whole 
on seeing a full moon. 
Don't even get me started 
On the FULL VIEW OF THE BEACH. 
How i feel safe 
Holding your hands 
under the sky full of stars. 
A best friend 
Full of Surprises. 
When I am packing 
for a vacation, a full Suitcase. 
After a long tiring exhausting day 
A full bath. 
After a never ending rainy week.. 
A full sunny daylight . 
When i am the stage, 
A FULL HOUSE. 

So pardon me 
If i do not understand. 
How you are hot one day 
and cold the next. 
If i do not understand. 
How I mean the world to you On Monday 
and on Wednesday I am just dust.
i do not understand. ...
How you are so brutally honest with words
and yet expect me to make something 
of this Silent Treatment.
i do not understand...
How I was someone you felt safe with 
but now you cant show me your darkness. 
i do not understand... 
How I was someone you absolutely liked
INSTEAD NOW... 
I am just another number? 

So Pardon me, 
For someone like me 
Who is so full ....
Feels so full !!!
Cannot find peace 
With your Half Arsed Methods. 
With your Half Words 
And above all, Your Half arsed heart. 
I am done with our half date. 
If i wanted a Half Boyfriend, 
I'd date my best Guy Friend. 
I cant walk half way anymore 
If you cant take that one step. 
I cannot stay awake 
Half the night anymore. 

So Pardon me, 
To give this, 
Give us 
A final FULL from me. 
A FULL STOP.